I sick of myself.

It has been a week. Finally i gt to blog, yes, finally.

I miss blogging damn much. There were many things happened this whole week. I am seriously in pain, suffering from stomach ulcer. It's getting worst day by day. It's kinda hectic week. Yes. and I'll be expecting the same for next week. Its all because of this disease, all things seem like out of my control. Sangat sakit.

Actually, i realized that i am suffering from gastric 2,3 years ago. But it getting serious now.

Klinic UIA sangat sucks.Aku tahu lah aku ada gastric, takkan asyik bg ubat yang sama if tak de pape effect. Unless ade some improvement ok lah kan.. ni nothing. damn lahh.

On wednesday evening i had a marketing class at 2pm.

Sakit sangat and aku suddently cried sebab tak thn sangat.. And Anis ask me to get the medical check up out side the campus. She drove to the clinic. Mom accompanied me and after that i consult the doc.

He said that my gastric get serious. Bahagian ulu hati tu dah bengkak and ada ulcer on it..i was like OMG! OMG! OMG!

And seriously i tell you what, i cannot stop myself from eating pedas2..but apparently, it seems that it is the main cause of getting this disease!

Oh my..

Please help myself. I afraid of diseases. I sick of eating medicine. I afraid of operation theater. I get mad of myself. Penyakit ulcer dlm perut ni mmg painful gila!!

tolong berhenti makan pedas!

:(

Debat: Hari Ini Membentuk Kerajaan, Esok Turun Harga Minyak!

Date : 15 July 2008
Time : 9.00 pm
at Astro Awani ch 501 - live!
p/s : catch it people!

rimas

Nak potongggg rambutttttttt

Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

P/s: He's my guardian, he's the Guardian Angel

ily.. :x

The commencement of Semester 1 2008/2009

And this is my second year of degree. My self-esteem getting lower by day. Yes, its all because of majoring unfinished problem. Mom cerita, masa dia dalam kelas IT Security, lecturer bagi tahu yang one of KICT student has been caught sebab kutuk2 lecturer dalam blog. hahaaaa.. itu kelakar. sumpah.

At the first place for me, majoring either in IT or Computer Science seems like doesn't have any different to KICT student. But, if suddenly people start to distinguished them like IT untuk orang bodoh dan Computer Science bagi budak2 pandai, itu adalah statement sangat menjengkelkan okay!

Yes, i admit to enroll yourself to become a bachelor of computer science student, you must get at least B in programming, maths and ICO. But, what if coincidently the lecturer tu nak dajal student and semua dalam kelas tu dalam C dalam maths? incomplete lecture on short semester.. 4 weeks out of 7 weeks yg ada just to spend belajar truth table yang at last, tak keluar langsung kt final??

Ia sangat tidak adil. Jadi bagaimana masa depan student yang memang bijak pada awalnya?
tiap2 sem dean's list and when she was in matriculation centre she managed to get B+,A-,A- and B+,A,A dalam math 1,2 and 3 ?? Keep on maintaining our cgpa 3.3 and above .. Keep on being a best student in class..

A pointer and your cgpa doesn't help you at all?

Apa ni? its up to student lah to decide what major they supposed and wished to study. Sebab math dapat C and the whole subject lain dapat A,A,A,A- and paling teruk pn B, terus tak dapat continue in BCS. Sangat kejam dunia ni!!

And now, its up to people to judge. Majoring in IT doesn't mean u sucks. Be as a Computer Sc. student doesn't mean u smart. Adakah anda rasa jadi CS student boleh mantain paling bangsat 3.3 and achieve 3.5 every semester? if it so, prove it distinguisher!


p/s: i started to hate judgmentalsss..sebab semua mereka ada mental disorder!

--"

To be continued

It's Kay once again. again. ahaa... he might become a sweet stalker after this.. sheeeshh..It's okayy.. -_- btw Kay, i'm still the super duper winner okay..pffft!

Ohh myy,, thanks Kay. This is my acronym created by you.. and i akan semadikan ia di dalam blog ini.

M= Mesmerizing
A= Adorable
R= Ravishing
I = Ingenious
N= Nuzzly
A= Apt

huhh? apt?

uhh, lastly "nnt tulis blog ckp kay margera ni nmpk jer arrogant, evil, proud, self centered, etc.... but deep down inside he is a very charismatic, cool and charming son of a gun"

--'

Bittersweet@Ruums, KL

A notes for Bitterist,

Catch them playing live exclusively at Unzipped tomorrow (13/07/08) at Ruums Bar, KL tomorrow, Sunday, 13th July at 2pm. The entrance fee is FREE and bring along all of our friends and enjoy the rock-n-roll tune. Hopefully, a lot of fans and friends will be there..

p/s : sheeshh, i thought they'll be performed on 21 July. It might be great to perform on weekend rather than a weekday..i'm going, i'm going..

Tagged by Alif

1. nama-nama timangan oleh org tersayang
-Ena [ primary, secondary, tertiary ]
-Mary [ by Salise and some web pals]
-Maryn [ by Adik, Fad ]
-Menna [ family ]
-Shubbiey by Sunshine

2. anda seorang yang...........
-Garang
-Emo & kuat mengangis
-Gemok dan pendek
-Malas
-Tak peramah langsung

3. Insan teristimewa.describe apa yg membuatkan die terlalu istimewa di mata anda.
-Sunshine [ romantik, loving, caring ]

4. Makanan favourite anda
-Satay Samuri :p
-Pedas2

5. Favourite color
-Purple pink

6. Favourite song
-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Guardian Angel [ at the moment ]

7. Sikap yg membuatkan anda stress
-Annoying people

9. Kali terakhir anda menangis beriya-iya..kenapa??
-Febuari 2008 [ It was because of love - love sucks ]

10. tag 5 rakan anda
-Siapa2 yang rajin lah iya..

-_-

p/s : Tagged by Alif on 30 June 2008...sekarang baru nak buat.. huehue

Weekend

At home,

Yes, i'm going to spend my weekend at home. Fatigued. This whole week mess me up. Add and drop period has closed and we managed to maintain 17.5 credits and this is our first try. huh! gila penat.

Ohh Dr. Kabuye. He's awesome. Sila add UNGS 2040 dengan dia!

:D

Mess up

Bunggle...and everything during this two days happened without anticipated by me.. pathetic, moody and tired..badly botched around my head..add dropping period ruin me up..
urgghh,, i need a sleep..

and i need to go back to my room..urgently.

;[

Poser

Nak cerita pasal seorang yang berlagak alim, berlagak baik, berlagak sbg org yang suka berkorban, berlagak pasal dia tu je yang suci.. padahal, the dark side of her macam ape..
tu pn nasib baik orang lain yang crite..

dia tu poser sial..menyesal aku kenal dia.. heh. 2008 tahun2 poser sekaliann..
welkam to the club..huehue

p/s : Sacarsticism - bf-gf sama je ek? sesuai... huhuu

-_-

Selamat kembali ke sekolahh..

Untuk kawan2 yang masih bersekolahh.. selamat memulakan pengajian untuk semester baru 2008/2009.. Sem baru ini memang sangat sucks kerana beberapa perkara yang amat menyakitkan hati.. kelas accounting yang baru sahaja habis sangat bosan dan mengantuk gila..

Dan aku telah buat kerja gila pergi ke Kuliyyah of Economics dan apply study plan Ba. Econs..
Sebab macam nak tukar kos..

amacam, cool tak?

--'

Updating

New semester started..
Means this whole week going to be such a boring+bz week. It's an adjusment period..
Bloggie dearie, sorry for the late update.. Rindu bloggie sangat.. There're a lot of stories to share with..perhaps some other times.

Regarding the curry mee, yes proud to say that i manage to cook it spendidly( i think so) [grinning] Ohh myy, it takes around 2 hours for me as a new beginner to cook. ahaaa..
sunshine gaves me 3 points out of 5.. [ rolling eyess ] ;)

dad b4 havin' the meal : tak pyh letak byk2...kang tak abes [ he's underestimating me ]
after the meal : [ mangkuk licin ] uhhh...sedap2,, 6.5/10 hehe..

;]]

akhirnya!

Aku berjaya juga makan satay samuri kat Awan Besar.. hahaahh! sronok gyle tak ingaat.. Tapi sebelum g makan satay, guess what saya telah membeli bahan2 membuat mee kari kt pasar malam.. huehue.

Kalau tadi juga tutup, memang aku akan ikut cakap Janie, bakar umah pekerja2 samuri kt Kajang tu..hahahahaahh!!!


jadi,

eksperimentasi nya bermula esok.

:DD

i love you

Sunshine,

I love you.. and i'm currently in love with you.. and i'm falling for you, for real.
Trust me..

:x

ehh..free free..

Pegi lah mini showcase kt KL tower..Showcase untuk Indie fest on Saturday, tapi untuk hari ni and esok free.. pegi pegi.. aku tak dapat pegi lah!! Sabtu kot aku g..huhuu..

Check-check rock-rockk..


abah kau..hahahah!!

Mantan sahabat

Sahabat,

Aku merindu kamu,
Ketawa kamu,
Gilaan kamu,
Bodohan kamu,
Pandaian kamu,
Cantik nya dirimu,
Aku kangen.

Akan dirimu..

Kenapa kau sebegitu bodoh, kau tinggalkan aku untuk sesuatu yang kau juga tidak pasti?
sesuatu yang kau tahu bukan sepatutnya milik kamu?

Tapi kini aku tahu sesuatu
Aku tahu mereka meninggalkanmu,
Aku tahu kau sakit,
Aku tahu kau menangis,
tapi bukan padaku..

Kau bodoh. Kau bodoh.

Namun kau mantan sahabatku..


=,=

Aku berada di gurun tandus

Kelmarin,
Tatkala aku sedang bermimpi,
Ketika diriku seorang berlari,
Di sebuah tanah gersang,
Gurun yang tandus,
Hanya berteman bayanganku sendiri yang tegak lurus ke Timur,
Hanya deru debu terkoyak angin,
Langit kosong,
Rumput kering,
Aku menjabat erat karungku,
Seolah tiada apa lagi yang aku punya,
Yang aku rasa,
Hanya sebuah picisan memori silam,
Yang tegar dalam ingatan,
Aku di gurun tandus,
Menginsafi kebodohan di masa lampau..
--,

woi!

Bodoh seyh siapa yang letak display moto macam rempit atau rama-rama budget comel kt display pic dia kt myspace or friendster tu..

Pastu nak add orang.

memang bangang nak mampos!

Aku ni nak make friends dengan moto, butterflies or cartoon ke?

Bodoh! Back off lah gile! Sampai mampos aku tak approve.

-_-

uhh.. capek capek

Aduhh, sakit bener badan guwe.

capek amet.

-_-